Sayo

In memory of a friend I lost a few years ago.

Today Sayo, we'd be drinking in celebration. Happy Birthday!!
Holding a candle in my window - all for you!!

Put a candle in the window, but I feel I've got to move.

Though I'm going, going, I'll be coming home soon,

'Long as I can see the light.

Pack my bag and let's get movin', 'cause I'm bound to drift a while.

Well I'm gone, gone, you don't have to worry no,

'Long as I can see the light.

Guess I've got that old trav'lin' bone, 'cause this feelin' won't leave me alone.

But I won't, won't be losin' my way, no, no

'Long as I can see the light.

Yeah! Yeah! Yeah! Oh, Yeah!

Put a candle in the window, 'cause I feel I've got to move.

Though I'm going, going, I'll be coming home soon,

Long as I can see the light.

Long as I can see the light.

Long as I can see the light.

Long as I can see the light.

Appriciation

Every time I get an opportunity to sit down and write on this blog I'm motivated to do so only because of a feverish emotion running through me. An emotion? well yes! An emotion. An emotion is, in my books, the only inkling in anyones body that can ensure that you are driven to get to vent out, express, challenge, discover, yearn and basically hope that you would act on that. Emotions arisen out of the blue? Well, not really. Emotions take you on a ride all through the various anecdotes of life - irrespective of the fact that they help you react in a positive and/or negative way but then again, a reaction can be termed to be positive or negative only by the perception that one is able to derive from the reaction, but, lets not take a trip down that road and get back to the motivation that we call emotion. I derive my emotional motivation by any significant moment in my life or a strong sense of hope or disaster that I can feel from a strong lyricized song at a desperate moment. Desperate!! well every one of us are desperate at every moment in life. Examples you say? well here are some:
- Does she like me?
- Man! The moon is full tonight?
- I love you!
- Ouch! my heart.
- Hmmm that was cute.
Not desperation you say? Well these are all just examples where every one of us are searching for an answer, a solution to contemplation, pain, love, joy, satisfaction - all modes of desperation to feel.
Apart form desperation and hope you have that unending roller coaster called 'LOVE'. ouch what a blinding effect it can have on people I must say right? Well it does. Love make you feel complete. It make you feel wanted, special, hopeful, gives you the motivation to feel for someone else more that you you could aspire to do yourself, and if you don't feel this well - then you're not in love!! Ever suddenly stop In your tracks when you hear a wonderful song that fits into that relationship you are / were on? Ever go shopping for a pair of pants by yourself and return with tons of things for the one you love simply because you have to, just have to see the smile on his/her face when you give them the things you picked up? Ever see a message or hear uttered to you those infamous 3 words by the one you love when, in the middle of a chaotic moment leaving you feeling lost in the passion of life, love and suddenly you cannot help but smile? A moment lost, is a moment lost forever and therefore you'd give up that drive in a cushy air-conditioned car only to walk through hail storming rain or sweltering heat just to hold hands and be with someone who'll make you skip a beat of your heart.
There are millions of people out there who today - feel love. They feel the love just like you and me, deep down in their heart. They love the fact that they cannot express this feeling in words and can only feel the ache of wanting to be with someone. And yes it does feel out-of-this-world amazing. Then there are those who have not felt love but can romanticize the feeling of love and can definitely want to reach out for that romantic event and hold on with dear life until the end of time. And finally, there are those who have loved, with every ounce of their heart & soul but, lost it. This last bunch of losers, not to put things harshly, are the ones who are on an absolute roller-coaster of life. It hurts, believe you me, it really does hurt when relationships break up. Its one thing to feel it first hand but, another to see someone else go through a breakup and all you can do is ask them to hold on and hope that things come together and no-one wakes up one day and says they want to leave, its a simple cumilative effect of deteriorating love. Commitment is all that is there and commitment is all that one can hope hold the relationship together where the glue can only be love.
Without Love, you have no hope, no meaning to a relationship, no heart to hold onto, no meaning to the existence of an emotional motivation to hold on to each other. Without love you and I have no meaning to life, no meaning to hope, no meaning to want, no meaning to feel - feel passion. You want to say the words - you're like a dream to me, you're the only one for me, you're all my heart can ache for, and the killer cliche - You complete me!!
But that apart - riding through a broken heart is a terrible disaster for a guy. Most guys feel the pain but cannot explain how a strong masculine exo-structure can hold a weeping little boy who didn't get picked to play in the game - so they bottle things inside them, pick up a beautiful bottle of the cheapest yet choicest alcohol & a pack of cigarettes and try to drive that feeling away. Can feeling numb take away the pain of a woman leaving you? Well for sometime Yes, it does work but, for the long haul not really!! The pain comes back and joins the huge bulge which helped grow on you through the pity liquor, cigarettes and that crappy grub you've been dishing in. The faster you wake up the better.
If you've been with someone who's woken up and walked out on what you thought was a strong relationship and confusion has just set in? Stand back! Stop asking why! Hold out on Hope and remember you've lost a woman you didn't appreciate enough before she left else she'd be by your side. Remorse? Hmmm a bit late in the game? well not really you have hope - there is tomorrow and then again you can sing through love lost. just like this great song I have here. Its a classy 'one-hit wonder' from an all-male, all-black group called '4:PM'. The song is called 'Sukiyaki' and will make you feel, every which way, through every single lyric. Take a read, better still run over to youtube or singingfool and take a listen - heaven in melody.

It's all because of you, I'm feeling sad and blue

You went away, now my life is just a rainy day

And I love you so, how much you'll never know

You've gone away and left me lonely

Untouchable memories, seem to keep haunting me

Another love so true

That once turned all my gray skies blue

But you disappeared

Now my eyes are filled with tears

And I'm wishing you were here with me

Soft with love are my thoughts of you

Now that you're gone

I just don't know what to do

(Chorus)

If only you were here

You'd wash away my tears

The sun would shine once again

You'd be mine all mine

But in reality, you and I will never be

'Cause you took your love away from me

Girl, I don't know what I did

To make you leave me

But what I do know

Is that since you've been gone

There's such an emptiness inside

I'm wishing you'd come back to me

(repeat Chorus)

Oh, baby, you took your love away from me!!